In the darkness of pain
And sadness
I hope
And wait
That the day may come
To bring light
And peace
To my night
You have one of two possibilities: You either allow your fear and doubt to engulf you. You will then only sink deeper and deeper into it – like in quicksand. Or you could call to God in your fear and doubt. The Bible assures you that God has not forsaken you even if it feels like it. Never depend on your feelings or experiences. You may call. He is close to you. By his spirit‚ He lives inside you. He will hear. He will awaken your doubting trust in Him so that you too‚ even in your doubting‚ will call out: I trust in God – even if I still doubt! And the miracle is that He gives the gift of faith through the Holy Spirit to enable us to hold on to Him even in our deepest darkness of doubting. We will then be sure: He will hold us even if we do start doubting again‚ because He is a safe haven; an eternal rock.
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In die donkerswart
van pyn en
smart
bly ek hoop en
wag
dat die dag mag kom
om lig en
vrede
in my nag te bring
Jy het een van twee moontlikhede: jy kan toelaat dat jou angs en vertwyfeling jou oorweldig. Dan gaan jy net dieper daarin wegsink – soos in dryfsand. Of jy kan in jou angs en vertwyfeling tot God roep. Die Bybel verseker jou dat God jou nie verlaat het nie‚ al voel dit vir jou ook so. Jy mag nooit op jou gevoel of ervaring staatmaak nie. Jy kan maar roep. Hy is naby jou. Deur sy Gees is Hy in jou. Hy sal jou hoor. Hy sal jou twyfelende vertroue in Hom weer lewend maak sodat ook jy‚ selfs in jou vertwyfeling‚ sal uitroep. Ek vertrou God – al twyfel ek steeds! En die wonder is dat Hy deur die Heilige Gees aan ons die gawe van die geloof gee om Hom in ons diepste vertwyfeling vas te gryp. Dan kan ons seker wees: Hy sal ons vashou‚ al sou ons weer in twyfel verval‚ want Hy is ’n veilige toevlug; ’n ewige rots.
